2014 in Review

I just looked at my dance event log for this past year, and hot. damn. I went to a lot of stuff, folks! More than twice as many events as 2013, and that’s not even counting the ones I organized. Dang. It’s simultaneously gratifying and exhausting to look at that list.

The more I think about it, though, the more it makes sense. This year was the first year that I really felt like I was making enough money to travel as much as I wanted. And clearly, I wanted to travel *a lot*. Which makes me feel even better about recent decisions I’ve made for my life. Cue anticipatory music.

After much hemming, hawing, excuse-making, and general terror, I have finally admitted to myself that teaching dance is my dream job. In light of that, and after some pretty intense number crunching, 2015 will be the year of making that happen. Or at least getting it started. Ramping it up. You get the picture.

Which is incredibly exciting! I have so many things I want to do, events I want to go to, classes I want to take, classes I want to teach, and ideas for my local scene. I’m super stoked.

But did I mention the terror? Yeah, that hasn’t gone away. If anything, it’s worse.

But it’s tempered by the freedom of finally knowing that I am committed to something that I love. I have wanted this for five years. Five. I’ve never wanted anything for that long. Beyond my family, I don’t think anything or anyone has remained such a huge part of my life for as long as dance has. So I’m giving myself three years. I’m keeping my job, for now, but I am going to try to go part time. And I’m giving myself permission to pursue dance 100% of the time that I am not at work. That permission? That’s huge. Even just in the past couple of weeks it has made a big impact on my productivity.

So in conclusion, 2014 was a big year, in many senses. And I’m going to make 2015 an even bigger one. Here’s to reckless confidence yall!